Day 3: My Parents

Dear Chenda,

I'm announcing you by your first name because you are nothing but a mere stranger to me. You abandoned us when I was five. Til this day I wonder how my life could of been different if I decided to stay with you and your new boyfriend instead of dad. But at the same time I'm pleased to not have left with you. I really don't know how to feel about you. I've hated and missed you at the same time. The last time we spoke was a little after you and dad split up, you were in a hospital and you told me you had made me a dress. I never received that dress and neither did I hear from you again. I've grown up to be known as the child without a mom and have had to deal with bothersome adults that would ask me endless questions about you. It was very awkward growing up without a mom. And just the way you moved on with your life, so did dad. He eventually remarried.

I hope that we do see each other so I can make aware that you're a traitor and how much pain you've caused the family.I don't even know why I have a picture of you on my Facebook page or why I have attempted to search for you. I'm done with all of that though. You're a coward and I hope that this eats you up every night before you go to sleep.

Dear Father,

It really hurt when you forgot about me. I remember how we use to be so close. After you remarried you just turned into this big Grinch. Nothing I said was right and I might as well have begged on my knees if I wanted something. I wish you were more supportive and didn't choose your wife over me. I remember asking you in elementary school if I can learn how to play the violin and you said, "No, the violin is going to make you deaf." Wow, just wow. I feel really bad that my little sister and brother have to grow up with parents like you.

Now that I am older I can list all the fucked up things you have done to me. When I was old enough to realize that you couldn't stop me from going out, you would chain the wooden door so I couldn't get in. Oh and you shouldn't have lied to me and told me that Chenda was dead, when she was really alive. I guess you figured it would of been easier to tell me that she was dead rather then alive to ease the pain. I really hated life living under your roof.I'm so glad I got to cuss out your wife, it was the grand finale before I moved out of that dump to go live in the dorms. I remembered you laughing at me because you said that those kinds of things only happened in movies. I'm so DAMN glad to prove you wrong. And now that your in a bind please try not to pull me down with you.K thanks.

At least you took me in and fed me. I'll give you that I guess.

Dear Momma Bear,

I love you and you are perfect even if we bicker about petty nonsense! I could have never asked for more.