Monday, April 25, 2011

Time Bomb


There are a million and one things I need to complete, but all I want to do is smoke with a friend. My assignments have accumulated to two presentations, two papers, multiple online quizzes, video lectures, poster work for my job and a sociological critique based on the movieTitanic, and to add this is just for the week -___- . It's not that I don't revel in my work load, it's just that there isn't enough time to fully absorb it. I don't take for granted the opportunity of having a free education but at the same time I feel I deserve to unwind since I contribute 80% of my time to my work and studies. Summer's just around the corner and I can't wait to reunite with my friends in L. A again. Although I love living in Long Beach, it's been quite dull after my best friend/ room mate moved out. I miss our ganja sessions and the stories about all the unstable people she'd meet on the blue line on the way back from school. Hopefully she'll move back for the fall semester and continue to religiously join me in watching Pineapple Express every night like we used to. But no worries, a positive thing that came from this is the fact that I am able to focus on my work. As much as I do enjoy company, I equally enjoy my solitude as well. So I guess having no friends in Long Beach isn't a bad thing after all, at least I have my cousins, aunt, my books and music from going insane. Removing myself from the social scene has made me really appreciate my friends. I'm very egg-cited to say that this summer I'll only be enrolling myself in three courses at LBCC which gives me the weekend to"GET F*CKED UP!!!" In addition I am uber thrilled for our road trip to Vegas to see Cocksparrer perform. It'll be the first time we will be out of state altogether for this punk rock adventure. All I know is, Sin City isn't prepared for our wild hotel vomit parties! I'm impatiently waiting for this new scenery, new faces, and an overall fantastic time.
One of the best summers of my life was two years ago when the majority of what we did consisted of hanging out on 25th street. My favorite memory was when we were huddled around my friend Mike's living room and under the sheets watching our other friend Falken lose it over a snuff film called Flowers of Flesh and Blood, this graphic movie entailed a young asian women getting kidnapped and hacked into pieces. It was comical due to the fact that Falken believed it was real and due to the fact that no one revealed the truth about the film til the end of the movie. His face was priceless! He just sat there in awe at the fact that we were able to tolerate this film. It's like geez thanks for thinking your own friends are immoral human beings, FALKEN! haha. I have a feeling this summer is going to be just as great (;











"You need to sit your little sexy ass down and watch your self get killed now!"

Monday, December 27, 2010

You know that I'm no good.


There are moments when I wish I was heartbroken, so that I can cry myself to sleep to these tunes.




Friday, December 24, 2010

Happy Hoe-lidays Everyone (;





Shut the fuck up, you're beautiful.






Ambrosia, you're growing oh so healthy (;

Thursday, December 23, 2010

562



I take interest in telling my grandparents the smell is coming from my neighbors house, through my window.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

2010



has been good to me...




































Thursday, August 12, 2010

Day23:The Last Person You Kissed

To Luis...

Our love sprouted when you surprised me with a phone call this one particular school night.

-Hello?
Hey this is Luis
-WHO? Which Luis?Pink Luis?Curly haired Luis?
Quiet Luis
-Ohh hey whats up?
(Gets to know each other)Blah Blah Blah

I quickly swooned over you. You and I shared thoughts, secrets and fears that were greater than the two of us. My cherish-able memory was the night when You, I and several of our friends went to an elevated area of Elysian Park overlooking the city. We take in the view, utter words here and there, then finally sit down on the cold pavement. Then comes the dare game. Everyone had their share of dares, when finally comes my turn. It was obvious that they were going to dare us to kiss. Everyone stood silent, we both lean in and touched lips. "WO0o0!",the crowd cheers. We all walk back home, parting ways. You walk me home with a few others. I am yet given another kiss by you and we call it a night. Weeks later, it's Valentine's day and you hand me a bouquet of roses, holding a guitar on your left hand. We sit down, as I was waiting for you to serenade me. You never did. Instead I received something better. You asked me to be your girlfriend. I was so happy I nearly wet my pants.

Although we have been broken up a few times, it was very foolish of me to even think I could even get over you. I'm ever so sorry that I've caused you pain. I don't deserve you but I want you to know, you are the best thing that has happened to me. No one will ever know what we're about. I would die for you my love.





Wednesday, August 11, 2010

As I smoked this cigarette, I kissed my childhood goodbye.


The big 2-1...

I am not having the time of my life. If anything, life has become grim. I don't feel inspired, only tired. I've come to realize those worth suffering for and those here for the moment. I want to partake in life's pleasures but don't know how. Often viewed as a girl filled with joy but on the inside I feel like a stern hag. I really don't know what's wrong with the picture. I have good friends, I keep myself busy with school and I have an amazing man in my life. I've come to conclude that it's probably just human instinct to hate your life once in a while. I am clueless to what these symptoms are but I hope they get better soon. I'm tired of being moody and having emotions.